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07 October 2008 @ 07:18 am
Theatrical Muse: Week 251: Question 251  
Name: Dr. Sid Hammerback

Fandom: CSI: New York

Word Count: 526

What's the most embarrassing thing you've ever done while sober?

Ah, sobriety, the best thing to help one think straight and clear. Oh no, I’m no alcoholic here, but I have been, on occasion, quite ragingly drunk. Thankfully, I’m not a very violent drunk, nor one prone to violence. Stupidity and accidents, perhaps, but not violence. Being sober, however, most definitely leaves me with more control over my actions, and a more level-headed plain to think on, obviously, and now, with certain varieties of “days”, behind me, I’m more a social drinker than anything. Although, while I will always be one to argue that drinking alcohol off someone’s body is a most enjoyable experience, I most definitely do not promote the idea of drinking to excess, regularly.

All that having been said, however, it isn’t like being sober doesn’t promise in absolute that a person will not make mistakes. We are, after all, no matter what we think about ourselves, subject to the follies and whims of humanity as it stands. We make mistakes, and if we desire so, we correct those mistakes, if such a thing is possible. Embarrassment at a verbal slip or a physical trip up is normal, because we like to think ourselves largely impervious to such foolish things, but all things the same, we make mistakes, we fix if we can, and we move on.

I myself, specialise in the more grim mistakes of humankind. The ones, the passes in judgement or the releases of anger, that results in the death of another person. I dissect and take apart what I can of these blunders, and I put things back together, I take evidence and I contribute to how and why a case is worked when the normal processes are put through the motions. I see people, in the course of my daily life, at the worst time in their lives, at the time where crying and relentless grief turned anger are not embarrassing, but represent a shard of pure sense and light. As a Medical Examiner, I don’t see crying and grief as embarrassing moments, even if they are letdowns of normal, conforming human behaviour. People lose, they regret, the cry, they beg, they plead, they let their emotions tumble as water over rocks, because, for those who care about the death of someone they have known or loved, or been close to, that death is a terrible thing.

I did do an embarrassing thing once, although, to me it was not so much as embarrassing as it was provocative and different. As it appears, I lie within a group of people whose sexual thoughts and desires outstretch the norms, and I don’t mind, as it goes, doing things differently. Therefore singing Sweet Transvestite in drag, in a small time production of The Rocky Horror Picture Show, was really nothing for me. Although I don’t incline to dress as a woman often, at the very least only once or twice a year, now, that particular occasion didn’t turn out too badly. Even if the stockings were quite revelling, and the pants, perhaps, a little too tight. I was not drunk though, not until the after party, and then, only slightly.
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